Friday, December 19, 2003

haiz... so boring...so boring... SO BORING!!! whole day work and work and work... other people part time work only less then 30 hours a week...i part time work 48 hours a week... T_T... I WANT TO PLAY POOL!!! >_<

LIFE... now i know how life after education feels like... work... and work... now i think it's better off dead... you know...

haiz... what ever i do now, i dun think it will be of any use to the future generations anyway... i'm not a very useful person u noe... anyway... with me still alive, i'm wasting the earth's natural resources... OXYGEN---> with me sighing the whole day, i'm taking in twice the amount a normal person takes in... WATER---> with me taking half-an-hour to bath, i'm pretty sure i'm wasting twice the amount a person usually wastes... ELECTRICITY---> you know people like me...afraid of the dark... i on the light everytime i get to... and i also on all my house lights, so i don't see any dark corners... haha... hmmm... haiz...

if only i die in my sleep... you know, no pain, no torture, and... i also hope i dun have a nightmare if i ever die in my sleep... i dun want to die remembering bad things... haha...

hmmmm... on 2nd thoughts... dying in pain might not be so bad after all... especially if i'm saving someone... haha like saving someone from car accident, you know, like pushing him or her right before he or she gets hit by a vehicle... haha... or maybe if i can replace someone's death, i'll be most willing to do so... if only there is no pain involved... haha...

haiz... if i really die... and haven't left a will... anyone who sees this blog... please inform my relatives to donate all whatever usable organs that is still in my body... (although i'm not sure if my organs are healthy, from all that junk food i've been eating~ ^_^)...

ans also! my bank account... haha... i think it has less than $1... anyway, if i die, donate it to any charity... haha

and... all my twins collection!! if i die, give it to some twins fans, who are really poor and can't afford to buy twins stuff... (not those who can afford but doesn't want to waste their money, mind you...) what i mean poor is really poor, and love twins so much that they really want twins cd and vcds so badly that they can't buy it...

what am i doing... toking about death when i'm only 16... haha... haiz... but i really want to find out if there is really an afterlife... i want to know if there is really another place like earth out there, but is out of our earth's reach... maybe far far away where man in our earth could not travel to, or at a place in the infinite galaxy, there might be another place just like our earth... and people living there just like how we live...

Tuesday, December 16, 2003

haiz... these few dayz tired like hellz... work and work and work onlyz... hahaz... =_=... i hope i get to keep most of my pay... hahaz... cause my mum told me to save money for my school fees if i get to poly... which means... i have to keep at least about 400 to 500 dollars per month... haiz... if really like this, den what can i spend on... i want to buy so many thingz... mp3 player, camcorder, small piano, new handphone, blah blah... hahaz...haiz...

zzZZzzzZzzZzz... since i started work hor, no more inspirations to write poems or lyrics liao lehz... T_T... whole day i work or else i stare into space... cannot think of anything to write or draw... haha... maybe is because never meet friends anymore... they used to give me alot of inspirations... just by saying some words, i can think of new things to write... hahaz... now hor, all i hear from people is, "oei!! faster leh!!", "err... this one help me put into another bag...", "dun mix the wet stuff with the dry ones hor"... haiz...

my life ambition...hahaz...:

young the time---> (about7 to 12 yrs old) be a police... C.I.D the best!!

----> (about 13 to 15yrs old) be a reporter...

NOW!!! ----> be whatever fate lets me be... hahaz... but i hope to write at least one song that can make people cry...( i not bad girl wor~... i want people to be touched, not be hurt...haha...) but so far hor... based on my friends comments everytime i show them a piece of my work... i dun think i'm very near to my goal at all... haha ~_~V


so PQ, i today hor, write so many things liao... haha... happy?